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The 18th Cowboy

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Rank	100967
Achievements	1774 (1256.51 points)
Number of games and DLCs	179
Number of all owning games	Game details not public
Badges	32 (9661 XP)
Member since	March 02, 2013
Total playing time	3875.1 hours
Completion rate	1.5 %
Location	United Kingdom (Great Britain)

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I was addicted to porn. I remember doing the 'intake test' where they assess whether or not you're actually addicted to porn, and I scored off the chart. I had let porn impact my life negatively, I had ruined relationships, I had a hard time forming intimate relationships, it ruined my productivity, I had started looking at more and more extreme porn, and was masturbating several times a day. Fortunately (I guess) I was a high functioning addict.

I started seeing a $200/hour therapist, who I've been seeing for the last two years. Here is what I have learned:

all addictions, porn included, are a way of coping with pain. If you find yourself struggling with porn, chances are you're struggling with pain. It's not always the case (and I'm not a therapist), but you should take some time to be introspective and think about what might be hurting you. For me, it was the constant feeling of inadequacy, especially when I was young. Porn was something that made me feel 'wanted' - I felt like I was being affirmed by the women I was looking at, which gave me a great personal boost.

don't try to fight your desire to look at porn - be curious instead. If you fight things, you'll end up eventually losing will power, and you'll will likely revert to your old behavior. You shouldn't try to fight the urge - instead, when it comes up, be 'curious' - ask yourself, "why am I feeling this? What is triggering me to feel these urges? What just happened? Where am I emotionally right now?" What you will find is that more often than not, there is a pattern that emerges when you're feeling that 'urge' - for me, it was a few specific patterns: first, when I wanted to be comforted, such as before bed, or when I was upset. Second, when I was feeling especially frustrated or 'stuck' - whether with work, personal projects (losing at something), or anything else - porn was something I always felt 'good at'. There were clear patterns that emerged for me, which made it a good starting place to drill into 'why'

after being curious, ask for space temporarily. It helps to close your eyes and use your mind to envision what the 'porn requester' is - it could be a person, a thing, something of relevance to you - and ask it for a bit of space. You're not saying never, and you don't need to commit to never right now - just ask for a little space for right now. For me, I have a vivid memory of the first time I looked at porn. I would frequently 'talk' to that younger version of me, and tell him that it was okay, but that we were going to take a break. It sounds weird, but it works.

remove temptation as much as you can. There are some practical parts here and more tactical items: put parental controls on everything you can, ask someone to lock you out (and put on a password). Remove access as much as you can to make it easier on yourself. If you get close to a slip up, but can't easily access porn, you'll have a much better success rate. It's like eating healthy: get rid of all the junk food in your house.

personal growth is a journey, not a destination. Socrates said "the unexamined life is not worth living" - simply by looking at yourself, and wondering if this habit of porn is good for you (and in this case, good for me), is a massive first step. It won't always be up, and it won't always be easy, but choosing to be better is the first and most important step.

Finally, and one of the things that hit me the hardest, is to remember that you are valuable. Not because of what you can do, not because of what you have accomplished, not because of any reason except for that you are you - and you are a valuable person. Never forget that, and never stop working on yourself. You are a valuable person, and you deserve the best in life. I hope this post is helpful, and I'm happy to answer any questions if anyone has any.

Achievements

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Game		#	Unlocked achievements				Locked achievements
			Current best	#	Points	%	Next easiest	#	Points	%
	10 Second Ninja	30	0.6193636060	10	4.98	33.3	0.6000759006	20	19.38	66.7
	7 Days to Die	43	-1	0	0.00	0	0.2387747765	43	32.12	100
	AdVenture Capitalist	31	0.7777678967	19	8.97	61.3	0.6395632029	12	10.65	38.7
	Alien Swarm	66	-1	0	0.00	0	0.1596455425	66	57.77	100
	Alien: Isolation	50	1.1511812210	16	8.12	32	0.6665017605	34	31.71	68
	America's Army: Proving Grounds	100	-1	0	0.00	2	0.9834697843	100-2	188.75	100
	Amnesia: The Dark Descent	18	-1	0	0.00	0	1.1231967211	18	29.34	100
	Arma 3	47	1.7394788265	25	24.88	53.2	0.5339757800	22	36.98	46.8
	Arma 3 Apex	18	1.4899916649	5	3.49	27.8	0.2400411665	13	17.94	72.2
	Arma 3 Helicopters	8	0.9432988763	1	0.94	12.5	1.2159155607	7	9.47	87.5
	Arma 3 Karts	5	0.7631032467	2	1.42	40	1.3547821045	3	4.16	60
	Arma 3 Marksmen	7	1.3275777102	5	5.12	71.4	1.1703292131	2	2.60	28.6
	Ascend: Hand of Kul	30	0.7558596134	6	3.63	20	0.8189502954	24	33.64	80
	Assetto Corsa	276	1.6223510504	15	16.37	5.4	0.6369316578	261	466.47	94.6
	Assetto Corsa - Dream Pack 1	36	-1	0	0.00	0	1.1334071159	36	44.33	100
	BattleBlock Theater	30	0.6874978542	15	6.84	50	0.5334387422	15	18.85	50
	Besiege	36	-1	0	0.00	0	0.6171436310	36	57.84	100
	Betrayer	21	-1	0	0.00	0	1.0434831381	21	27.04	100
	The Binding of Isaac	60	0.6322447658	18	7.33	30	0.5743070245	42	36.19	70
	BioShock 2	60	-1	0	0.00	0	0.8209512234	60	87.62	100
	BioShock 2 Remastered	45	-1	0	0.00	6.7	0.9039623737	45-3	60.22	100
	BioShock Infinite	50	0.7213987708	15	6.34	30	0.1832090318	35	26.67	70
	BioShock Remastered	65	-1	0	0.00	0	0.5152699351	65	75.29	100
	Borderlands 2	50	0.7105370164	33	11.29	66	0.6238333583	17	15.38	34
	Borderlands 2 - Captain Scarlett and her Pirate's Booty	3	0.0045231138	1	0.00	33.3	0.5353473425	2	1.08	66.7
	Borderlands 2: Mr. Torgue’s Campaign of Carnage	3	0.0129811922	1	0.01	33.3	0.3666746318	2	0.97	66.7
	Borderlands 2: Sir Hammerlock’s Big Game Hunt	3	0.0059360857	1	0.01	33.3	0.4090483785	2	0.87	66.7
	Borderlands 2: Tiny Tina's Assault on Dragon Keep	10	0.3399444222	6	0.85	60	0.2972673476	4	1.87	40
	Brawlhalla	57	-1	0	0.00	0	0.3752201796	57	72.56	100
	Castle Crashers	12	0.9877931476	6	3.70	50	0.9513568878	6	7.87	50
	Chivalry: Medieval Warfare	49	1.4647748470	11	10.36	22.4	0.6518566012	38	49.91	77.6
	Cities: Skylines	35	1.0812031031	13	7.30	37.1	0.6546926498	22	26.05	62.9
	Cities: Skylines - After Dark	4	0.8619344831	1	0.86	25	0.8543222547	3	3.30	75
	Cities: Skylines - Snowfall	11	0.2109566033	3	0.39	27.3	0.8891549110	8	9.14	72.7
	Clicker Heroes	111	0.1940046400	7	0.91	6.3	0.1255836040	104	74.19	93.7
	CONSORTIUM 2014	39	-1	0	0.00	0	1.1713632345	39	77.74	100
	Counter-Strike 2	1	-1	0	0.00	0	1.0748777390	1	1.07	100
	Counter-Strike: Source	147	-1	0	0.00	0	0.2140490264	147	121.35	100
	DARK SOULS™ III	43	0.5577122569	29	9.36	67.4	0.3991481364	14	10.69	32.6
	DARK SOULS™: Prepare To Die Edition	41	-1	0	0.00	0	0.2352402806	41	33.27	100
	Darksiders	43	0.8937697411	2	1.58	4.7	0.5106477737	41	44.89	95.3
	Darksiders II	50	0.9707778692	22	15.49	48	0.6347748041	28-2	34.41	52
	Darksiders Warmastered Edition	43	1.0952934027	5	4.48	11.6	0.9538671970	38	49.58	88.4
	Day of Defeat: Source	54	-1	0	0.00	0	0.6888743639	54	71.64	100
	Dead Island: Epidemic	54	-1	0	0.00	100	0.4591437876	54-54	92.77	100
	Defy Gravity	8	0.6074287295	2	1.09	25	0.7556891441	6	6.34	75
	Depth	40	1.1561038494	8	4.46	20	0.5983570814	32	33.18	80
	DiRT 3 Complete Edition	60	1.4299473763	18	18.40	30	1.1603639126	42	67.93	70
	Dirty Bomb	77	-1	0	0.00	0	0.5401694179	77	122.67	100
	Dishonored	50	0.7914654613	16	7.75	32	0.3313955069	34	29.22	68
	DOOM	39	0.6703352928	17	6.13	43.6	0.4122178257	22	23.96	56.4
	Duck Game	18	-1	0	0.00	0	0.2973869145	18	20.12	100
	Dying Light	53	0.7947484851	24	6.13	45.3	0.3369794786	29	21.64	54.7
	The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim	50	0.5949908495	34	11.95	68	0.3274700940	16	9.84	32
	The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim - Dawnguard	10	0.8410894871	1	0.84	10	0.2941309512	9	5.20	90
	The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim - Dragonborn	10	-1	0	0.00	0	0.2667446434	10	5.82	100
	The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim - Hearthfire	5	-1	0	0.00	0	0.3190350533	5	2.85	100
	The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim Special Edition	75	0.8154850602	3	1.46	4	0.4105251133	72	67.07	96
	Euro Truck Simulator 2	29	0.6583979726	7	2.64	24.1	0.3954550922	22	21.11	75.9
	The Forest	45	-1	0	0.00	0	0.1536710411	45	37.40	100
	Fractured Space	34	-1	0	0.00	0	1.3623380661	34	71.05	100
	Game Dev Tycoon	35	0.6207051277	19	5.45	54.3	0.3873902261	16	14.85	45.7
	Garry's Mod	29	0.2866896987	4	0.58	13.8	0.3013689518	25	26.32	86.2
	Gear Up	27	-1	0	0.00	0	0.4767072499	27	33.77	100
	Goat Simulator	49	1.0839091539	9	4.79	18.4	0.3134208322	40	35.41	81.6
	Goat Simulator: MMO Simulator	23	0.3875782490	4	1.00	17.4	0.4429764152	19	13.80	82.6
	Grand Theft Auto V	77	0.2552077770	6	0.99	7.8	0.1784488559	71	52.81	92.2
	Grey Goo	35	2.1324579716	15	23.58	60	1.8178735971	20-6	49.69	40
	Guardians of Orion (Phase 2)	7	-1	0	0.00	0	1.2334874868	7	9.60	100
	Guns of Icarus Online	849	1.5853320360	14	12.36	1.6	0.8958683014	835	2537.95	98.4
	Half-Life 2	33	0.7370535135	10	4.36	30.3	0.4351681471	23	16.33	69.7
	Half-Life 2: Episode One	13	-1	0	0.00	0	0.5471482277	13	10.43	100
	Half-Life 2: Episode Two	23	-1	0	0.00	0	0.4466724992	23	17.46	100
	Half-Life 2: Update	33	0.6597847939	3	1.70	9.1	0.6630501151	30	27.98	90.9
	Hammerwatch	38	0.4907459617	2	0.96	5.3	0.7083056569	36	53.96	94.7
	Homeworld Remastered Collection	34	1.4925001860	22	20.94	64.7	1.1206833124	12	15.04	35.3
	Hydrophobia: Prophecy	13	0.5584051013	1	0.56	7.7	0.7069503665	12	14.23	92.3
	Insurgency	100	1.9985028505	59	70.04	59	1.3880298138	41	75.45	41
	Interstellar Marines	28	1.9255124331	6	8.08	21.4	1.7370988131	22	49.52	78.6
	Kingdom Rush	74	1.0136442184	69	44.24	93.2	1.0536870956	5	6.02	6.8
	Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning™	50	0.5848821402	5	2.04	10	0.4639061093	45	42.13	90
	Left 4 Dead	73	-1	0	0.00	0	0.3373264074	73	60.71	100
	Left 4 Dead 2	101	0.6682322025	3	1.40	3	0.1572649628	98	103.80	97
	Loadout	28	-1	0	0.00	0	0.4651729763	28	39.89	100
	The Lord of the Rings: War in the North	46	1.2267080545	35	29.97	76.1	0.9363440275	11	15.99	23.9
	Magicka	52	0.3219718039	13	2.73	25	0.2763098478	39	36.48	75
	March of War	42	-1	0	0.00	0	1.0506738424	42	96.97	100
	Max Payne 3	46	0.7959226370	10	5.18	21.7	0.4062395990	36	43.12	78.3
	Men of War: Assault Squad	110	1.3658795357	7	6.60	6.4	1.0592103004	103	191.25	93.6
	Men of War: Vietnam	22	-1	0	0.00	0	1.3656917810	22	41.50	100
	Meridian: New World	83	1.6067122221	2	2.57	2.4	1.2501593828	81	179.68	97.6
	Metro 2033	48	0.6267978549	2	0.98	4.2	0.6992597580	46	57.22	95.8
	Metro 2033 Redux	49	1.0893517733	21	12.87	42.9	0.5053958297	28	28.19	57.1
	Metro: Last Light Complete Edition	50	1.3960540295	21	16.03	42	0.6558369994	29	34.57	58
	Metro: Last Light - Faction Pack	6	0.0999914184	1	0.10	16.7	0.1027428210	5	1.26	83.3
	Metro: Last Light Redux	49	1.0929787159	12	7.67	24.5	0.4537836313	37	32.22	75.5
	Middle-earth™: Shadow of Mordor™	51	0.9712879062	26	10.05	51	0.2891271114	25	17.07	49
	Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor - The Bright Lord	10	0.1553895026	2	0.17	20	0.2118494809	8	3.40	80
	Mount & Blade: Warband	80	1.1706079245	36	23.59	45	0.6195682287	44	47.53	55
	No More Room in Hell	114	0.4430865049	1	0.44	0.9	0.5575478077	113	206.58	99.1
	Nuclear Dawn	58	1.1403547525	5	3.86	8.6	0.6792612076	53	85.22	91.4
	ORION: Prelude	251	2.2131474018	111	157.92	44.2	0.9860837460	140	289.62	55.8
	Path of Exile	127	0.8947760463	12	6.67	9.4	0.6261410117	115	136.77	90.6
	PAYDAY 2	701	1.0848833323	43	23.68	6.1	0.4965687692	658	778.23	93.9
	PAYDAY 2: Armored Transport	48	0.1603784710	1	0.16	2.1	0.2077211291	47	27.69	97.9
	PAYDAY 2: Gage Mod Courier	10	0.1099445671	1	0.11	10	0.0152155003	9	1.87	90
	PAYDAY 2: Gage Shotgun Pack	12	0.2732372582	2	0.31	16.7	0.2296607792	10	4.19	83.3
	PAYDAY 2: Gage Sniper Pack	17	0.0869128853	1	0.09	5.9	0.1564949602	16	5.92	94.1
	PAYDAY 2: Gage Weapon Pack #02	10	0.6448369026	4	1.81	40	0.5380522609	6	4.33	60
	PAYDAY 2: Hotline Miami	12	0.4059911668	1	0.41	8.3	0.0573824905	11	3.64	91.7
	PAYDAY 2: The Big Bank Heist	20	0.3206025958	2	0.41	10	0.1190103069	18	9.64	90
	PAYDAY 2: The Charlie Santa Heist	15	0.4522479177	3	1.12	20	0.2017861605	12	5.37	80
	PAYDAY 2: The Death Wish Update	31	0.7711946368	28	14.40	90.3	0.6237555742	3	1.98	9.7
	PAYDAY 2: The Election Day Heist	16	0.3277041614	1	0.33	6.3	0.1363748610	15	5.67	93.8
	PAYDAY 2: The Hoxton Breakout Heist	6	0.4898444712	3	0.79	50	0.2517426610	3	0.91	50
	PAYDAY 2: The Infamy Update	25	0.2303673923	5	0.70	20	0.2935276031	20	8.53	80
	PAYDAY 2: The Shadow Raid Heist	12	0.1987190396	3	0.40	25	0.1928773969	9	2.81	75
	PAYDAY: The Heist	48	0.4977957606	4	1.52	8.3	0.7879800797	44	60.09	91.7
	Planetary Annihilation	19	1.9642330408	13	19.75	68.4	2.0390839577	6	13.13	31.6
	Portal	15	0.1842535287	1	0.18	6.7	0.2533885539	14	10.62	93.3
	Portal 2	51	0.7090542912	15	4.56	29.4	0.3410005867	36	27.11	70.6
	Portal Stories: Mel	28	0.2617815435	1	0.26	3.6	0.2823368609	27	23.86	96.4
	POSTAL 2	69	0.9360063076	9	4.65	13	0.4616434276	60	58.80	87
	Project CARS	45	1.7061135769	9	8.47	20	0.6530269384	36	62.22	80
	Quake Live	58	-1	0	0.00	0	0.6518806815	58	99.61	100
	Race The Sun	25	0.8216335177	4	2.43	16	0.6641480327	21	33.14	84
	Realm of the Mad God Exalt	31	0.6246611476	6	2.68	19.4	0.5579099059	25	35.44	80.6
	Rising Storm/Red Orchestra 2 Multiplayer	140	2.5851519108	35	41.71	41.4	0.8942915201	105-23	217.59	58.6
	Rocket League	72	0.4497667253	31	5.05	43.1	0.2041117251	41	23.23	56.9
	ROCKETSROCKETSROCKETS	36	-1	0	0.00	0	0.7263720036	36	59.68	100
	Sanctum	79	1.7574961185	11	10.25	13.9	0.4612207413	68	105.36	86.1
	Sanctum 2	43	1.1670668125	10	6.56	23.3	1.0771275759	33	58.18	76.7
	Serious Sam 3: BFE	61	0.9379980564	7	3.98	11.5	0.3924640417	54	61.49	88.5
	Serious Sam Classics: Revolution	42	-1	0	0.00	0	0.9215133786	42	78.26	100
	Serious Sam Double D XXL	30	-1	0	0.00	0	0.8172373772	30	44.66	100
	Serious Sam HD: The First Encounter	35	-1	0	0.00	0	0.3749484122	35	57.77	100
	Serious Sam HD: The Second Encounter	70	-1	0	0.00	0	0.6636838317	70	118.88	100
	Sid Meier's Civilization V	118	0.8844428658	13	3.27	11	0.1985944211	105	109.59	89
	Sid Meier's Civilization V: Brave New World	60	-1	0	0.00	0	0.3928485215	60	75.73	100
	Sid Meier's Civilization V: Gods and Kings	51	0.0633803532	2	0.07	3.9	0.1222246960	49	60.91	96.1
	Sniper Elite V2	41	1.5290676355	30	21.24	73.2	0.8617919683	11	16.81	26.8
	Space Engineers	29	-1	0	0.00	0	0.5595220327	29	48.77	100
	Spec Ops: The Line	50	0.3436422050	1	0.34	2	0.3652692139	49	35.95	98
	Squad	2	-1	0	0.00	100	3.5255672932	2-2	3.53	100
	Squishy the Suicidal Pig	11	-1	0	0.00	0	1.5984438658	11	19.49	100
	Star Conflict	213	1.8650267124	36	42.92	16.9	1.0572890043	177	340.94	83.1
	Strike Suit Infinity	16	-1	0	0.00	0	0.9445534348	16	25.15	100
	Styx: Master of Shadows	33	0.7287401557	2	1.39	6.1	0.8639723659	31	36.02	93.9
	Super Hexagon	6	1.2559446096	6	5.60	100	100	0	0.00	0
	Super Meat Boy	48	0.5838714242	3	1.15	6.3	0.6835682988	45	65.55	93.8
	Surgeon Simulator	72	0.8914849758	9	4.12	12.5	0.4445832968	63	84.66	87.5
	Survarium	73	-1	0	0.00	100	0.7524611354	73-73	120.05	100
	Team Fortress 2	520	0.6366671920	11	3.37	2.9	0.2453317791	509-4	360.25	97.1
	Tom Clancy's Ghost Recon Phantoms - EU	57	1.3245520592	3	3.10	100	0.7773959041	54-54	108.79	0
	Torchlight II	119	0.4155416191	20	4.74	16.8	0.2092275470	99	91.70	83.2
	Total War: EMPIRE - Definitive Edition	30	0.5877895355	2	0.97	6.7	0.8013377786	28	41.80	93.3
	Total War: SHOGUN 2	106	1.8851046562	24	27.28	22.6	0.9507684708	82	141.42	77.4
	Total War: WARHAMMER	135	1.8200583458	70	62.11	51.9	0.6142358184	65	86.51	48.1
	Total War: WARHAMMER - Chaos Warriors	8	0.4435894489	4	0.81	50	0.5599972606	4	3.43	50
	Total War: WARHAMMER - Realm of The Wood Elves	10	1.0275003910	7	2.65	70	0.6498363018	3	2.93	30
	Trove	19	-1	0	0.00	0	0.9100152254	19	30.14	100
	Unreal Tournament 3: Black Edition	57	0.9354752302	3	2.11	5.3	1.0177499056	54	91.27	94.7
	Unturned	72	-1	0	0.00	0	0.3182185292	72	98.39	100
	Verdun	59	1.9639285803	33	42.15	55.9	1.4939242601	26	54.88	44.1
	VVVVVV	19	1.4812314510	2	2.78	10.5	1.0289331675	17	31.15	89.5
	War Thunder	82	-1	0	0.00	0	0.5027199388	82	137.91	100
	Warface: Clutch	67	-1	0	0.00	0	1.0344916582	67	170.05	100
	Warframe	193	0.9986478686	111	70.49	58.5	0.6218055487	82-2	93.32	41.5
	Wargame: European Escalation	29	1.1022750139	6	5.52	20.7	1.3356792927	23	39.77	79.3
	Warhammer: End Times - Vermintide	88	0.9639492035	27	15.74	30.7	0.8224785328	61	104.21	69.3
	Warhammer: End Times - Vermintide Last Stand	6	0.2681972682	2	0.53	33.3	0.8322088122	4	4.53	66.7
	WildStar	142	0.7946330309	4	2.45	2.8	0.7484825850	138	240.70	97.2
	The Witcher 2: Assassins of Kings Enhanced Edition	52	1.1508618593	34	26.17	65.4	0.7631347775	18	20.36	34.6
	The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt	52	1.1353108883	43	24.49	82.7	0.7918134332	9	9.05	17.3
	The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt - Blood and Wine	13	0.3531542122	10	1.94	76.9	0.5589136481	3	1.75	23.1
	The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt - Hearts of Stone	13	0.6622740030	9	3.11	69.2	0.3271937668	4	1.97	30.8
	World of Guns: Gun Disassembly	42	-1	0	0.00	0	0.1900094002	42	50.99	100
	Yet Another Zombie Defense	18	0.3909176886	2	0.76	11.1	0.4286461174	16	14.12	88.9
	Zigfrak	2	-1	0	0.00	100	3.1978454590	2-2	6.57	100

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